Why didn’t I take my son for the BEAM surgery?

This blogpost is my response to a question a parent asked me regarding my own experience with my son who committed suicide.


We tried to convince our son to go to Ecuador for the procedure. He did not want to give up going to UCLA for which he had a scholarship. He completed one quarter at the university, received straight A’s, and then dropped out and was hospitalized. His father visited Dr. Mackliff and the clinic in Ecuador and tried to set things up for Marco to go. When he returned to CA where Marco was living with him, Marco refused to even speak with Dr. Mackliff on the phone. I believe he had an idea that the procedure would make him simple. The testimonials at that time, were from a boy who only had a high school education and others who were not academic. I believe his psychiatrist told him that, without knowing anything about BEAM. His father printed out all of the information on BEAM and gave it to him and also had met a boy who had gone through the procedure very recently. He told my son that the boy was fine, not 100% yet, but better than with schizophrenia.

My son had a very strong will and was very intelligent. He had decided after leaving the university to take his life after considering all of his options. He convinced us that he was taking an online course through UC Berkeley extension program. He stayed in his room and isolated himself; he refused to see a psychiatrist since starting the university in January of 2014. He took his life in July of 2014. We were too ignorant about the signs of depression and suicide; separate from the vegetable state considered normal while on antipsychotic drugs. 

This is the reason that I have spent the past four years writing a book, creating a film, and maintaining a blog, to educate parents, so that they don’t have to lose their children like I did.




Suzanne with Miguel, 28-year-old boy with 8 years of paranoid schizophrenia who had the BEAM surgery in January 2018 and is now living a normal life.

7 thoughts on “Why didn’t I take my son for the BEAM surgery?

  1. We are having trouble convinving my son to get the Beam procedure due to not accepting having esquizofrenia, any advise on what else we can do to taking him to ecuador he hear voices and say tha he is being 24/7 monitored electronically and being say what to do, he gets bad crisis from excesive voices and deilusions.


    1. Can you show him the documentary film with the case study videos? Also Miguel video on schizophreniaSolution.org. My son was in denial also. When he finally accepted that he wasn’t going to have a normal life, he decided to kill himself. Can you convince him to go to Ecuador and meet the doctor? He creates trust in the patients who meet him. Don’t believe all of his opinions; they can change. Suzanne


      1. Hello, I sent you an email a few days ago. I have schizophrenia and I would like to get in contact with Dr. Mackfliff so I can get the beam procedure. I would just like to get some more information about the procedure. My name is Odaine, please check your inbox because I sent you a message, with all the details about my issue.


  2. In spite of all you and your husband’s efforts and love for your son, he did it his way. What a tragic story that should have ended differently. You certainly have no need to blame yourself because you did all you could and more. Thanks for all your efforts to inform others about this procedure. I just learned about it and have been reading all I can in hopes that I can convince my noncompliant 32 year old paranoid schizophrenic son that there is hope. Generally he is against everything his dad and I suggest so I need to be well informed before I approach him about it.


    1. Can you take your son to go to Ecuador first, and present the procedure, when you will see doctor in person. Dr.Mackliff will convince him. Dr. Mackliff is very professional, he will help, but you need to go first. BELIEVE me!!!!
      In US your son might disagree, and then all the effort will be pointless.
      Schizophrenics are delusional, the reality is distorted for them. They deny everything, even their illness.
      Your son will thank you after surgery, when his mind will get to normal. With psychosis, he never will understand how surgery is essential for him.
      We were there, trust me I know what I am saying.


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